Reboot

I've decided its time for me to get back on track. I've been doing so well all summer with eating healthy and working out on a regular basis and practicing well, that I'm not willing to give it up. Kind of hit a rough patch the past 2 weeks where I'm in a standstill with my playing (except my routine has DRASTICALLY improved recently) and I've been eating really crappy foods and not working out. I believe this is what most people would call getting into a funk. So I'm up, dressed, have laundry in, ate breakfast and am about to step out to the gym right now at 8 a.m. WIN.

I'm starting to freak about little things...I sometimes get scared that Becker will find someone else while he's out at Aspen, or that he doesn't feel the same about me any more. I don't really know why I'm starting to feel this way all of a sudden, but I hate it. Maybe its just the whole thing with my family is creating this underlying mistrust or something, but I often feel that there is something wrong when we talk on the phone,I hope to God that isn't the case. I think what set me off this morning was seeing that he never even mentions me in his blog anymore, while I'm thinking about him all the time here. Call it silly and reading too much into things, but its how I feel and I need to write it. (blog therapy). So that has been the cause of lots of emotional stress for me lately.

Anyways, just wanted to update on my life....I need to get to the gym before it gets any later.

-Rachel