Reboot

I've decided its time for me to get back on track. I've been doing so well all summer with eating healthy and working out on a regular basis and practicing well, that I'm not willing to give it up. Kind of hit a rough patch the past 2 weeks where I'm in a standstill with my playing (except my routine has DRASTICALLY improved recently) and I've been eating really crappy foods and not working out. I believe this is what most people would call getting into a funk. So I'm up, dressed, have laundry in, ate breakfast and am about to step out to the gym right now at 8 a.m. WIN.

I'm starting to freak about little things...I sometimes get scared that Becker will find someone else while he's out at Aspen, or that he doesn't feel the same about me any more. I don't really know why I'm starting to feel this way all of a sudden, but I hate it. Maybe its just the whole thing with my family is creating this underlying mistrust or something, but I often feel that there is something wrong when we talk on the phone,I hope to God that isn't the case. I think what set me off this morning was seeing that he never even mentions me in his blog anymore, while I'm thinking about him all the time here. Call it silly and reading too much into things, but its how I feel and I need to write it. (blog therapy). So that has been the cause of lots of emotional stress for me lately.

Anyways, just wanted to update on my life....I need to get to the gym before it gets any later.

-Rachel

Summer is juuust flyin by...

I can't believe it is already mid-July. So much to do and so little time to do it! I'm a bit bummed since nobody from my family has been able to stop by to visit me at all this summer. Its been kind of lonely. Hopefully Bex and Andy will be able to make a visit sometime before the end of the month; that would TOTALLY make my summer amazing.

Yesterday I lay out in the sun for, oh lets say, about 40 minutes. I even wore sunscreen because I am so fair skinned. After I got inside I discovered that I was HORRIBLY burned all over my stomach, upper legs and part of my chest. Today was so difficult to work at the park while feeling so uncomfortable. Last night was rough too; I ate some bad chicken and ended up throwing up from around midnight until approximately 4 a.m. :/ Looong night, to say the least.

I didn't practice much today; but I feel like I'm just ready for a lesson on the material I have so I can start working on bigger picture concepts. I can get through all my music at this point; which is a relief. El Alacran is just a chop buster; but if I can pace myself and relax I should be able to get through it pretty well. :) The multi-phonic stuff in Basta! is really tough though; since I'm a woman and my voice is higher than the pitches written. Unusual challenges; but I'm up for it!

I've felt restless lately; so if anyone wants to go party it up this summer; I'm not going to be doing much of that this upcoming year (Cohort in fall and student teaching in the spring). Last summer of freedom!!! :)

Love,
Rachel Catheryn

Life goes on...

This summer has been pretty difficult for me thus far. While lots of things are going well, I really miss Becker and my family a lot. I've been lucky to have good friends from last summer still in my life (aka the whole band at Vfair) and I've also been lucky enough to meet some cool people who add some new interest to my life like Jonathon and Justin, while still keeping up with old EC friends like Brad and Mary. :) So all in all I should be ultra happy and perky but lately I've just been depressed. To avoid this post from getting long and dramatic; I'll just stick with the good stuff for today.

I like working at Valleyfair; I love the people there. I love playing trombone; even when I don't sound perfect all the time. I love coming home to a place where I am cared about and comfortable. I love my family and am happy that my parents are working things out. I love my siblings and am happy that they are achieving their dreams. I love Becker and am glad that he did well on his New World Symphony sublist audition. This is getting mushy; so I'm done. :)

If anyone in the Minneapolis area is looking to hang out at all during these last months; I'd love to see people. I'd also like it if anyone has time to listen to some of my recital material. Picked a difficult program and need to play for people so I can get some good feedback. I'll have a lesson with John Tranter soon (if he ever gets back to me) and I am almost set up with a lesson with Dave Werden for the end of July. Very much looking forward to it.

Bought a brand new laptop from Colin (thanks, friend). He only had it for a month or so and discovered it didn't do all the fancy, advanced things that he needed for online poker. So he passed it along to me at an incredibly affordable price and I'm so thankful. This past year sans computer was a difficult one.

Anyways, time to get some sleep in; another long day at the park tomorrow (I'm picking up as many extra shifts as possible to pay for school this semester and grad school auditions).

Love,
Rachel